So I took a trip downtown with Jonny recently! And for those of you who wanted to see... Here it is, the Cathedrial! (im sorry spell check doesnt work right now)
Sorry, the door was locked and lights were off. X.X And i promise i have a video for you, i just have to get it uploaded. XD
So WILL, WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING FOR YOUR DAYS OVER IN DAT DER COUNTRY?!?! Well Chris Cooper, I have been working construction. XD Yes, construction. We have been putting up insulation and sheetrock for the new place that is being built. I had some pictures but we cant find the camera that took them. Well that is lame! But it has been hard work bringing all the insulation, sheetrock, and I expect more up the 3 flights of stairs to the top of the building. But God has been giving me a happy heart regardless! I usually dont like physical labor, and I want that to change. So it is really cool to see God changing my heart in the small things. =D
Also I tried to take the kids into the church to teach them some music. Well i forgot how hard it is to teach when I dont speak their language. So it turned into a free for all more or less. =D I DID, however, get them all to play Amazing Grace around the same time! So, close... then today an ACTUAL teacher came in and taught the kids. THANK GOD! I guess he heard that I was a drummer and willing to teach Florin the drums. So I sat down and tried to teach him. But here is the thing.... Florin is notorious for having absolutely no attention span. That guy has sooo much energy and is about 11 years old, and he really does not like to show respect to anyone. If he were to focus all his energy toward a single thing, he would learn it almost instantly! So at first it was quite frustrating, while the teacher was teaching others, every 5 seconds telling him, "Tu nu cind acum!" "Ai rubdare!" and "Gata!" which in very bad Romanian grammar means "You no play now" "Have patience" and "Finished/ready". So, I was getting tired of saying all those things over and over, but I didnt want to get angry or anything so i thought of another plan! I told him to play on the chair next to him until he is supposed to play. He started WAILING on that chair so hard! It still made noise but it was sooooooooo much better than him hitting the snare drum constantly as hard as he can! After that, I told him, "MERGEM!" (We go) and I ran around the orphanage with him. When we came back, the teacher looked over and gave me a thumbs up. =] Over all, Florin has a lot of raw ability to play. The only things holding him back are his mindset(he doesnt feel like he can play the toms because they are like new territory for him) and his attention span. None the less, I still love him! He is a really neat guy and is also really really smart! Please keep him in your prayers!
My heart has been in turmoil, My mind is running too fast.
An interesting thing has been happening to me ever since i came. In America, sin happens and it is hard to pin point where exactly it comes from a lot of the time! So many things happened, so many things are pulling our eyes away to watch, ears away to listen, hearts away to socialize. Something goes wrong and I said, "I better not do THAT next time." But that is not how it is here. Simple, very simple. Easy, in a difficult way.
(take this next part how you want to, but this is what i felt)
Why is my heart in turmoil? Well, I have confronted not only my sin, but my inner evil desires. In my prayer, God rattled the bees nest. My sinful nature made a cameo. I felt all the horrible, awful desires and longings that i had been "neglecting" over the past weeks. It was angry, I was angry. My flesh was enraged but I knew God was with me, protecting me from myself. I let myself loose on the keyboard infront of me. I literally met the side of me I hate, face to face. Honestly... I felt like Golem from Lord of the Rings ironicly enough.
You think you are doing good. Doing ok, doing fine... Until you meet yourself. It's not something I want to do again. I still dont really understand why God would love me after that. He has every right to leave me behind, forget about me. I deserve it! I totally do! Yet for some reason... that I will never fully understand... You pick me up, tell me You won't let go, and hold my hand as I begin to learn how to walk again.
Absolutely incredible!
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